A Tangled Head in a Ten Foot Ditch

Image courtesy of the author. Greenwich, NJ (December 2021).

there are no cannibals in london

only academics with copper pots 

he makes no allowance for the undertaking

of going to the grocery store

a tuesday   in the dairy aisle

he buys two cartons of milk   three of yogurt

twenty grains of rice   to lie across his doorstep

let me pass the checkout aisle

pass scanners   pass money

pass faded faces   staring from faded ink

home   he cooks a steak

he eats very little 

vacancies   line his stomach

I considered my courses   the way the wind bent 

around my ribbed body   a warning

a ceiling fan   the clanging of a rail

in the months of november and december

he replaces   the soap   the laundry basket

the telephone wire   the bird feeder

the echoes in the living room

I prepared myself

washed my brain nine times a day

lobe after lobe after lobe

until my skin burgeoned red

in the months of november and december

he replaces his eyes   his arms

his larynx   his tendons

with a bottle   now floating in the thames

another year   congratulate me 

on watching the laundry dry on a washing line

congratulations   the methodology of madness

a birthday card   two days early

and he stains the kitchen table 

with the shatters of him

— 


he plays himself 

in every other dream

his mind   floods

a drip  a pen drops 

a drop of water

skitters across a cracked spine

darkness spreads ink to newspaper

his radio   in a house that never knew 

how it was to be tangled

to be weighted   to wear  to fissure

in places   there never were before 

sometimes   he wakes upside down

sometimes   he never wakes at all

floating instead in the lost day

the lost year   of spinning fans and solitary swims

on a beach   where sand tangled

the waves   smothered him

alive   the way the wind cuts into his head

in the morning   innocence drifts

and a curtain buries his body

enrapture and enrobe   rapture

rapture   and tell him his sins

heaven folded cold after the war 

tell him his sins   he sits on a dusty sofa

tell him his sins   he follows a breath down the beach

as human   he was born in cut hair 

and broken chairs   breakfast sausage 

and baked beans   a letter 

an enlistment   a signature 

a mantel of silence  

enrobing his twisted limbs

Ayla Radha Schultz

Ayla Radha Schultz ‘25 is a poet and writer from Brooklyn, New York. She is a prospective English Major, and a hoarder of words. She believes poetry is an art form of the people, and should be available to everyone—and will happily talk for hours about it when given the chance.

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