March Is March

Artwork by Ronald Bolokofsky.

Artwork by Ronald Bolokofsky.

after Emily Skaja


I go on forward. Between one coast 

or another, my face sinks lower, still lower. Home 


becomes a ceasefire. When she leaves I stop


taking care of my body; I stop walking in the morning.

Plates of corn gag themselves out of my throat. I count


the days in her absence like it will bring her back.


Time collects at 4:00, 

when the dog knows it’s time to walk. I watch his paws 


pitter-patter on the wet gravel, I watch my life fall apart, & I let out a Good Boy! 


These days he can only go so far. 

Anne Carson writes, Spring opens like a blade


I’m trying to reinvent myself, replenish my wardrobe, wear a new skin, 


swallow pink pills. Instead I buy all the books we talked about

& everything makes me cry. 


Lakes don’t look the same anymore.


I close my eyes to avoid clashing with the dirty dishes in the sink;

the trash overflows with trinkets & letters. 


Plant-based blueberry scones are long overeaten; I ignore the tupperware


that was once their home in the cabinet. Meanwhile spring moves onward, 

the great outdoors punctures like a knife. 


I check Facebook too many times, let slobber trickle down my chin & salt water 


pile on my sheets. The psychiatrist asks 

why I can’t just find someone else,


& I say, It isn’t that easy— 


& I say, Really, I’ve tried— 

& I say, You don’t understand


Every night I beg not to dream about her EVERY NIGHT I beg.

Tiffany Wong-Jones

Tiffany Wong-Jones ‘23 is a writer from the Pacific Northwest

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